deflated

Over the span of one week, I have lost so many things, in many aspects. Lost passion, lost direction, lost hope, lost a distraction, lost the drive, lost motivation and lost my rationality.

There will not be any more of taking initiatives, just waiting for the least expected pleasant surprise to fall on my lap. Afterall, no expectation means no disappointment. I have always been an "all or nothing" person. It's just that when I set my eyes on something, or when I like something, I usually like it for a very long time.

I am trying to find back my rationality, because my focus has never failed me. With rationality, I will know what is the right thing to focus on. Need to finally make some goals and decisions. Options lose their value with time...it's time to make those decisions and act on them.