Quotes from The Alchemist

Below are quotes from the book The Alchemist:

1. When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it
2. I'm like everyone else -- I see the world in terms of what I would like to see happen, not what actually does
3. The world's greatest lie is that: at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie
4. From then on, he would make his own decision
5. This isn't a strange place; it was a new one
6. deal with the concept of love as distinct from possession - love without ownership
7. Don't think about what you have left behind......if what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil......[] If what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star, you would find nothing on your return.
8. boy: My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer. alchemist: Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.
9. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place.
   

on #7 --purity, is it something we can expect in our real world now. is everything not tainted with a little bit of impurity?

i want to be a scientist

an article (http://www.newsintercom.org/index.php?itemid=288) invoked memories that i wanted to an astronaut (which then got reclassified to scientist because that seem slightly more plausible at the age of 12). made me really want to be a scientist. i don't know if it's too late to pursue my dreams, or chase the material gains as reality is "taught" and reminded in our face everyday.

at least i know for sure now that i am not contributing to my nation or the world in the most productive manner if i were to stay.

supposed to feel liberated. but. i don't. not yet

i'm being stupid again. falling knowingly, and i don't know..

I have deep heat smothered all over my back now. there is one strip of back muscle that is easily over strained through badminton and db. and it's hurting now, lopsided swelling. pain pain pain!

yet again i have brought stuff home to do, but left most of it undone. reason being i always bring home more than what i can finish. bad habit. plus, i don't really have the intention to spend so much of my weekend on work. no motivation, no incentive to do so. and i don't want to spend the last 35 minutes of my weekend grousing about work either.

completely and utterly, without reservation and apology.

heck, i should just concentrate on work. which i need to. to-do lists growing again, no more slacking off or saying bottlenecks are the cause of it. bottlenecks are to be broken up, and wat, solutions need to be created by me.

but actually i don't really care about the work already...... where is the passion, where is the direction that i need. i looked at the mfe courses this weekend, a few choices are available, will spend sometime looking through the applications.

rehab - rihanna
"it like i checked into rehab, baby you're my disease....
cos anytime that u needed me i'll be there, it's like you're my favorite drug
now i know it's not meant to be, i gotta go gotta go wean myself off you..."

if passion wants to be elusive, grab hold of freedom instead.

quotes of the day

去一个很远的地方，也许就能把你戒掉

if it's not fun, don't do it

they can't have you, cos you're mine

everybody's special, but some people just matter more

shit shit shit. i dreamt last night, of running, with some people. don't know why but damn, the falling feeling is here again. SHIT. goddamit, just let me get over this. come'on, hold your fort, steady yourself, and deny and forget.

my gastric has been acting up lately, gone bonkers. no coffee & tea says the doctor. but that means that nothing is keeping me awake.

the stupid m-t-m session is 1 month away, and the venue, date - everything, is not sorted out. shit. it's the monday blues. i've got to go to work now. it totally defeats the purpose, but i've this morning off, but it's likely i will be working late tonight. laugh all you want, i lead an irrational life.

it is a matter of time before sg implements some form of 'protectionism' for the locals, just as a means to make us, the indigenous feel better. How else would you make your own people feel the sense of belonging, and the sense of respect. because i seriously think the so-called foreign talent has none for us. they have respect for the same thing we have: money, or by proxy, power. and you have to be realistic and know that your own people may not make it to the top all the time. can you imagine how it would feel when you are scorned by the 'outsiders'. it will suck.

i woke up in a slight shock today, at around 8am. i thought i was late for something, and realised that it is not sunday-no db, it is not a weekday-no work. then i went back to sleep happily. mahjong was pretty relaxing, a nice chill-out afternoon, with A LOT of eating. after that it was more food for cp's bday dinner. i am still feeling full. probably don't need any breakfast tmr.

I have my written goals for Jul 2009. This is what I want to happen:
Goals for GLMT in Jul 2009
1. ... ...
2. To be doing a part-time/full-time post-grad course
3. To be more confident, & to appear more confident by others
4. To be a strong character & leader who is respected by others

I have it on paper, online will be good to keep reflection on this as well.

today..yesterday

today i went shopping for a washing machine with my mum and sis. it was impromptu, because i only knew they were in the area when i was leaving at lunchtime. so we had lunch together, and went to 2 harvey normans to check out some washing machines. sam sung beat LG and we bought a 7.5kg one and bargained for free delivery. you really need to be focused when buying/negotiating things-focus on what you want, and ignore the fluff and noise that the salesperson is trying to distract you with. and we managed to waive the $30 delivery charge. it was a long process i must say, shopping, walking, talking, deciding and re-deciding. so i was pretty late by the time i reached ubi.

looked at the cars for a while, and test-drove the jazz. old model, because the new model will only be here in nov. and so the late-ness carried forward to ktv at downtown east. i think i will excuse myself for ktv tmr, i will have to wake up early on sun morning anyway..

by the time i got home (in a brand new red honda jazz that was picked up today), it was 11-ish. but i managed to
- catch nadal beat djokovic to get to the finals (sad.. sadder because federer is out!)
- watch the all-rounder female gymnastic finals (cool, and the gynmasts have all my respect man)
- watch lin dan beat his compatriat with ease to get to the men singles finals (sad cos i think it's on sun night, and it's vs lee chong wei, so it should be a great match. but i might not be able to catch it)
- finally bathe and blog and send an email.

eyes tired. don't want to update already. tmr playing mahjong. later i mean.

Changing oneself doesn't work, because you are who you are. If things are meant to be, things are meant to be, but if things are not meant to be, it doesn't mean that you need to give up. You just need a change of perspective.

i quote below...
love somebody, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology
And never, ever want to expect being average

why am i moody

I have unsubscribed to something, a quote from an article...."If it is that difficult to love somebody, then perhaps it is not meant to be." That doesn't have to be the case. I don't know how it is possible to love someone without knowing that person first. Liking people...yes..although that doesn't happen often at all.

I must not be unfair to myself. so i must will myself to be a friend, to more people.

the auspicious 8

It's like kicking a REALLY huge boulder, with your barefoot. You try to move it with that bit of effort you can muster but it ends up hurting a lot because your foot gets bashed up..because you kicked it into a huge boulder. and your mind goes "why are you being such an idiot". So you nurse your freaking painful foot. After a while you walk by the same route that is blocked by the same road that is blocked by the ugly big rock (that seem oblivious to others). You don't have the strength to lift it up and push it away by yourself yet, so you do everything you can to get stronger and hope the next time you kick it, it will just burst into a pile of sand, and you can finally walk out of where you are now.

today is 080808, the auspicious day. so today i shall make an early wish, that i will get a real big present on my birthday. i have no idea why i am doing this now. could be because i am hoping for something good to happen in october. october is my favorite month. since today.

took 51 back from the last day of my bpr course today, which was spend creating an excel car budgeting calculator complete with formula. sat through queensway, alexandra...the whole 200 bus-stops home. and when i reached home, i was locked out because i forgot my keys.

And i did not win the 8.8mil draw. damn.

hopeless case

i have a runny nose today. but am in a pretty better mood today, right now, probably at the peak since 2 weeks ago. hmm i think it's because i'm a piece of hopeless case. maybe it's really true..that u just want people you care about to be happy, then u'll be happy already. or maybe it's the runny nose that's screwing up my mind, but in a good way.

i have decided to not go for the power boat course...because it will eat into db time.

tomorrow....i shall not drink so much coffee and enjoy spacing out while i'm on course, and try to talk to my course-mates more.

i need to chill out more, and take my mind of things. i want to start enjoying all the simple things that made me happy and satisfied last time. so first of all, i shall sleep early tonight, and yet again, take the pile of stuff i brought home to work on as dead weights that i enjoy lugging around...

stop thinking

had a nice poh piah, milo and company of my bestest at qi ji eatery after gym today. gave me the reassuring feeling that somethings in life are there for you, no matter what.

i will not want to make any more first moves. first movers expose themselves....to disappointment. i don't want to feel anything now. i only wish for life to become normal again. a normal life by myself where i am satisfied and happy by the simple things in life.

hopefully writing all these down will clear up my mind. time to sleep and get some rest and stop thinking

everyday a sucker is born, but a sucker yesterday doesn't mean that you are a sucker today

my profile should read "easily satisfied". I took a slow walk en route home. The long slow walk made people walking pass seem like they were in a hurry.

Am currently still struggling to bury some thoughts and feelings. Not so much abt time heals but that when u don't think abt something or someone long enough, u will forget. I want to deny now, and forget. I don't want to feel anything now.

deflated

Over the span of one week, I have lost so many things, in many aspects. Lost passion, lost direction, lost hope, lost a distraction, lost the drive, lost motivation and lost my rationality.

There will not be any more of taking initiatives, just waiting for the least expected pleasant surprise to fall on my lap. Afterall, no expectation means no disappointment. I have always been an "all or nothing" person. It's just that when I set my eyes on something, or when I like something, I usually like it for a very long time.

I am trying to find back my rationality, because my focus has never failed me. With rationality, I will know what is the right thing to focus on. Need to finally make some goals and decisions. Options lose their value with time...it's time to make those decisions and act on them.