And I thought I'd have time to rest during this 2-week away from office. Instead it becomes like I'm working 2 shifts. 3 in fact. Daytime of modules and seminars. Some reading materials and project that eats into outside official working hours. Work and appraisal stuff that FURTHER eats up after-working-hours. It's a good thing that I get over-caffeinated during courses. But right now my eyes are damn tired...still got report to read, research to do, some techy stuff to mess around with for knowledge-building. Brain in overdrive. Need some rest, why is the cocktail competition still 2 days away!!! Drinks and some fun desperately needed. Until then, I will survive on minimal sleep this week.

I've been getting familiar feeling of paranoia that disappointment may hit me of late. If I get a double(or triple)-whammy of disappointment in the first half of 2009, i will feel very very very very lousy about myself (i.e. feel worthless, incompetent, the like). I am not good at dealing with rejections. I don't know what will happen to my ego if that happens. I hope it doesn't.

I hope the golf lessons works out, learning something new will be good for me.