Monday, June 16, 2008

confused and unhappy

I hate it when I am losing steam in the work I do.  The sense of loss of direction has come back to haunt me.  I need to find ways to talk myself out into a picture of possibilities and optimism again.  It is like a disease that strikes every year (or every half a year when I am unguarded, and my mind is weak).  My strength and feeling of self-worth is being doubted by myself at times like these and it is a bad bad feeling.  The need to think about the future is a daunting thing that I have tried to do many things, but with no conclusions.  Only options are discovered, and eliminated.  Too many baggage and constraints that I am afraid to break through.  Have I drawn myself into a circle and restricted my own movement? 

 

Is this lack of stability a sign of immaturity or frivolity?  I need to talk to someone who can tell me something; someone who can open my eye of wisdom and restore the peace within me.


1 comments:

Anonymous said...

my line is always open for u... though i may not be able to give sound advice, u can always just complain and vent ur frustration.. i hope u can call me anytime when u need a listening ear -zd