tired

getting loads and loads of info from new work. and am burning my brains out getting reacquainted with codes. codes are still fine, but assembly language?! am reading all over the place on scripts and registries and analysis tools. it's just the lack of sleep and time, otherwise, this really isn't that bad. i just got to figure out how to shine in the new place fast. too many experts there while me, a noob. but i ain't going down.

my mind obviously runs too many strings of thought simultaneously. when that happens, it is, in other words, known as short attention span. or frequently disrupted or interrupted thoughts. very much like how your computer works, via interrupts. no joke, but this is ALL geek talk. I usually try to suppress it (the frequently interleaving thoughts), but lunchtime it happened again, i was reading on malware analysis and slipstreaming SP3 to make an iso image for installation in the virtual machine, when the thoughts below just emerged and took over for a while, so i wrote it down below. (Yeah all those in italics, i picked them up in a span of a week. i wonder how far down the geek road i can venture ...my guess is...as far as i want to).

Here goes:
They say that the aggregation of minds, brights ones especially, sparks innovation. Ideas develop quickly and motivated & intelligent people will drive their ideas to fruition with zest and passion. The system of reward and performance measurement however, counters such a phenomenon. Individuals are pitted against one another and ranked relative to each other in individual-based appraisals. This creates subtle hostility and thus, instead, high potential individuals are placed relatively apart and well-distributed within the organization. These individuals can the supposedly 'thrive' in the lesser competition, or possibly bring up the overall quality of work in his or her proximity.

I opine that lesser competition leads to lesser innovation and cannot support fully the assumption that 1 individual is able to cause such a 'change agent' effect and cause an overwhelming change. Incremental improvements are possible, compared with the overall leap when the 'smart ones' together are lumped together, organizations (depending on type, focus etc) may have more to benefit from quantum leaps of innovation as compared to incremental organizational improvements. That is probably why the high-performance management consulting firms only want the best to join them and form the crowd of only the best.

and i mentioned i am lacking of sleep now..