early x'mas post

I err, haven't been writing. I'm not sure if that matters to anybody at all. Though I might find it a pity next time that there isn't any records of my life now. My mid-twenties life.

X'mas is coming again, coming earlier it seems, with decorations up in November and all. Well it's december already, everybody's in the mood for christmas. Just finished virtual 'poking' many of friends, a thin thin way of maintaining contact with friends. But beats no contact at all. Also just finished cleaning up my music library, the kind of thing that I have been procrastinating about: renaming the unreadable characters, putting in the right singers, titles, correcting typos, removing duplicates. Aargh I feel brain fried now although I'm pretty sure brain utilisation has been minimal today.

Maybe just to lessen the guilt or cut down the lack of regular posts, I'll make try to account for what I have been up to lately. Or how my life is looking like so far.

I have been reading a bit lately, trying to upgrade my knowledge about finance stuff. I'm pretty sure finishing a financial management fundamentals textbooks won't put my in a better position for a career change, but more knowledge is always better than less. At least that's what I believe. So after learning about how finance people make a whole lot more of money than what i'm doing now, i figured maybe that's where I should be. The desire to earn a disgustingly whole lot of money at the compromise of everything else seems reasonable to me now.

The probably only interesting thing happening in my life now is that I took up drumming. Weekly sessions where I hit to the beats and forget about everything else. I love it that I scheduled the classes on monday nights. Starts the week out on a better note, countering the omnipresence of monday blues on mondays. But that's all, if I were to draw my daily mood/state in a chart, it'll probably look like this:

The drumming keeps the Mondays more bearable. Goes downhill from there, reaching the trough on wednesdays, the mid-week syndrome. But it usually isn't that bad, unless it's a shitty week. Thursdays aren't that chirpy either, but things are looking up. Then it's a shot of ecstasy when friday ends.

Of course as of all matters, the mood graph changes according to work, meeting with friends, bosses and colleagues behaviour etc etc. But on a typical week, that how it looks like. Pretty boring.

Coupled with the recent infatuation with a particular girl band's very (at least in my infatuated mind) pretty member. I'd think what kind of life am I leading now as compare to those super stars, jet-setting around, with earnings in millions. And we're about the same age. Why am I not jet-setting and why am I not earning big bucks?

The intensity of such questioning has attenuated since a few weeks back where I was feeling a little lower than low. Now, it's just low. If I press on too much I fear I'll go crazy or depressed, none of which I want.

Ah what the heck. Another I found recently, nothing new, only some reinforced results that I am a type INTJ, who, according to mypersonality.info, has make up only 1.5% of the population, and only 0.5% of the female population. I like the description of the INTJs from their webpage, made me feel right at home.

I'm sleepy enough to go to bed. Ciao for now, hope I come back soon to document my life.